It is early morning and I have been at the festival for the past 8 hours, listening to music. Well, not so much listening to the music as experiencing the music. As I look down at my clothing, I see all the stains from the dried sweat that has now begun to create an uncomfortable stench in the car. I also notice for the first time that there’s some dried blood on my shorts. I don’t know who’s blood it is. It could be mine, or someone else’s blood who had been packed into the audience next to me. I try to think back to everything that just went on, but to be honest, it is really hard. My only hope now is that I can make it home safe, sleep in my own bed and wake up tomorrow – with my feet on firm ground.
That memory is what remains from a festival I went to in 1997 or 1998, but it’s exactly how I feel as 2016 comes to a close. I feel like I just got the hell beat out of me. Getting shoved into mosh pits, tasting other people’s sweat and finding their dried blood on my clothing. And now I am ready to go home. However, I hope that I do not forget what happened in 2016. It’s the wisdom we gain through these experiences that can make our future much better and more optimistic.
The past couple years, I have been in survival mode. Transition to the next day, the next challenge, survive and then move on. That is one reason why my habit of writing end of year reviews and setting goals ended. I was hoping to get through the next couple months, let alone trying to optimize my planning to thrive over the next year. However, now that 2017 is here – I am optimistic that I can generate some of the best experiences that I have had over the past 38 years. I am planning for it.
For 2017, I have decided to write down the experiences that I want to have, opposed to a goal I want to accomplish. It is probably semantics, but I believe by stating the experience and emotions, it will help me expend energy in appropriate ways. I also want to sit down on 12/28/2017 and write about all the things I experienced over the past year. That feels more motivating then being able to share a check list of items I completed.
So here it is, my experience list of 2017:
– I want to know what my body feels like and discover the sense of accomplishment I have after running 30 consecutive days.
– I want to uncover the mental awareness available after doing Tara Brach’s guided meditations for 20 consecutive days.
– I want to experience the anxiety and discomfort associated with completely disconnecting for 3 consecutive days (and hopefully the benefits at the end).
– I want to feel the excitement and pride associated with making the sale, that brings 50% of Ventre Tech Revenues from product sales.
– I want to experience the pounding of my heart, after running a sub 5:30 mile during a 5k again.
– I want to feel the fatigue and grittiness of a 3 day / 2 night back packing weekend on the Sheltowee Trace.
– I want to know the satisfaction associated with 1,000+ users, using software daily, I helped develop.
– I want to be immersed in a moment with someone, where it feels like time stands still, anxiety is absent and conversation is easy.